What I’ve Learned this Year (so far)

Since January of this year (2019), I’ve moved across the country twice, started a new job, had amazing experiences teaching yoga, met amazing people, and I have learned a lot about myself.

From the beginning of this year, I’ve learned a lot about choices.

I get to deliberately choose the things I want in my life.

I choose where to live, who I interact with, and how I interact with other people.

I choose how I start my day, I choose what I want to do.

I learned that if I don’t choose what I want, then whatever happens, happens by default. I can’t complain about what happens in those times, because in a way I chose that too. I chose it by not choosing.

I learned that if I choose what other people want me to do, then that makes them happy.

If I choose what I want to do, then that makes me happy.

Even within the choices I have already made, I continue to choose either contentment, or dissatisfaction.

Remember Day One

Isn’t it interesting how when we get a new job, we are often enthusiastic about it and so excited to be there. After a few short months, we can feel dissatisfied and negative about it. The job most likely didn’t change very much in that time. It’s us and our experiences and thoughts that continually shape our perspective on everything.

It’s like this with relationships too. When you first get into a relationship, you feel enthusiastic and so in-love. As time passes, you begin to feel maybe not as excited as you once were about things. It seems more routine, or it has become ordinary.

I have learned that it is a continual choice how you feel about the relationship, or the job, or anything else in your life.

You can feel the same way you have felt on day-one, even if it’s months or years later.

I invite you to imagine the very first day of some experience, job, relationship, or even back to the beginning of this year.

What were you feeling, thinking, or believing in during that time?

Live in that moment. Breathe it, see it, feel it.

Is any of what you have experienced on day-one applicable now?

I believe it can be.

Generate those same thoughts, feelings and excitements as you felt when you were most excited about the experience, and I bet you can find some of the same elements in that situation now. Situations change all the time, see if you can find some new things to be excited about, as if it were day-one. Every day can feel like day-one.

Every day there’s something you can find excitement in.

And that’s what I’ve learned this year (so far).

New Years Every Day

Most people at some point in their life have made a New Year’s Resolution. We have such high hopes to change with the New year. To become a better version of ourselves. Many of us use these Resolutions to spark that fire of change.

Then, many of us give up or forget our Resolutions by week three of January. Or maybe even sooner than that. I have personally made the choice to not make any New Year’s Resolutions this year. This is not because I am not committed to being the best version of me, but it’s because the idea of Resolutions is unrealistic for me. They may be unrealistic for you too, and if you feel overwhelmed or uninspired to make any New Years Resolutions, let me offer this instead:
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You Can Heal Yourself

It’s not yoga that heals you. It’s not essential oils that heal you. It’s not medicine or any other thing. It’s the experiences it goes through that cause it to heal. It’s not the mind that takes a drug and then it’s healed, it’s healed from exposure to new perspectives. As we choose these new, healthy, more balanced things in our lives– we become that.

It’s your body that heals itself when it’s awakening. It’s your mind that heals itself when it’s changing perception. Magic happens when we open ourselves up to possibilities and experiences. Even if those experiences hurt– it’s still healing. It’s still growing.

Change is always constant– how about we choose what we change into, instead of going with the default.

I am committed to change for the better!

-hope

What I Don’t Want You to Know About Me

 

What I don’t want you to know about me is this: I’m not perfect.

I don’t want you to know that I want to control how others behave and feel when they are around me. I’ve wanted relationships to be perfect, for people to act in the way that I want them to. I want to control others at times, and I get frustrated if people did not act the way I wanted them to.

I want to control other’s reactions. I want to control what they do with their time. I want to control their feelings… I want them to make me feel a certain way at times.

I wanted to control perfection.

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